He shut the laptop a little too hard. “Hanna, you know I am. We wanted this, right?”
I nodded, but something inside me twisted.
Then one afternoon, the boys napped at the same time. I crept down the hall, desperate for a moment to breathe. As I passed Joshua’s office, I heard his voice—low, strained.
“I can’t keep lying to her. She thinks I wanted a family with her…”
My hand flew to my mouth.
I moved closer, heart pounding.
“But I didn’t adopt the boys because of this,” he said, his voice breaking.
Silence. Then a rough sob.
“I can’t do this, Dr. Samson. I can’t watch her figure it out after I’m gone. She deserves more than that. But if I tell her… she’ll fall apart. She gave up her whole life for this. I just… I just wanted to know she wouldn’t be alone.”
My legs went weak.
Joshua was crying. “How long did you say, Doc?”
A pause.
“A year? That’s all I have left?”
The silence stretched, then he broke down again.
I stumbled back, gripping the banister, trying to breathe.
He had known.
He had let me quit my job, build a life, become a mother—knowing he might not be there to stay in it.
He didn’t trust me to face the truth with him. He decided for me.
I wanted to scream.
Instead, I walked into our bedroom, packed a bag for myself and the twins, and called my sister, Caroline.
“Can you take us in tonight?” My voice didn’t sound like mine.
She didn’t ask questions. “I’ll get the guest room ready.”
Within an hour, we were gone. I left Joshua a note:
“Don’t call. I need time.”
At Caroline’s, I finally broke.
I didn’t sleep. I lay awake replaying everything.
In the morning, as the boys colored quietly on the floor, one name echoed in my head: Dr. Samson.
I opened Joshua’s laptop.
The truth was there—scan results, notes, and an unsigned message from Dr. Samson urging him to tell me.
My hands trembled as I called.
“I’m Hanna, Joshua’s wife,” I said. “I found the records. I know about the lymphoma. Is there anything left to try?”
His voice softened. “There is a trial. But it’s risky, expensive, and the waiting list is long.”
My breath caught. “Can he get in?”
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